Handling Holland.. (and now aidan too!)

It’s september! and how fast time flies! so many things happened, the last 9 months and i cant even begin to tell you how exciting and challenging it was! honestly, i cant really say i am 100% mentally ready, but i’m getting there. the nervousness! not knowing exactly when it’s going to happen!!

Despite being ‘heavily pregnant’, we still feed the ducks every week, we still go to ikea to get stuff for the house (tho i cant do the whole tour), we still go to town on thursday’s late night shopping (and eat my favourite ice cream in the world), we still do the groceries (hardy pushes the cart now), and everywhere i go, people kept staring at my bump! it felt really strange! i was told by our dutch friends that at this stage, most pregnant women dont go to ikea! they rest at home and walk around their neighbourhood! and i thought, "how boring!" well, i now know how it feels to be stared at, or even looked at when you’re slightly ‘different’, in my case, ‘big’!

It is now time, i can tell you for sure, for i’m begining to feel pain in places i’ve never felt before! today, i’m going to have my 12th visit to the midwife’s. and later tonight, i’m going for my zwangerschapgym (pregnancy gym), my final class! my hospital bag is ready, our maxi cosi’s in the car, and our quinny dreami speedi is out of the box!

My husband’s got too much on his plate these days, i worry and sometimes i feel bad for not being able to share more with him, and contribute. too many things to handle at the same time but he never fail to keep his cool and just being positive and supportive. never! he follows me to my midwife for every single visit, he attends the partner’s avond at my gym, he cooks, he cleans, he puts on my socks, and tie my shoelaces, he massages when my back’s aching, he kept reassuring me everything’s going to be alright, trying his best to do everything, to juggle everything and to keep everyone calm, assured and well imformed. i’ll spare you more of the details, but he has done so so mcuh and how much i admire him and look up to him. and i cant stop thanking God, Alhamdulillah, i’m so grateful and thankful He has given me the best person there is for me. i’m very lucky.

It will be the 3 of us soon.. our lives are about to change! and the feeling’s just overwhelming!

Please pray that the baby will be in good health, selamat dan sihat, cukup sifat dan sempurna, Insyaallah. and labour would not be as tough as i predict!! Thank you guys for reading, and thank you so so much everyone for your well wishes! Selamat berpuasa, and may you have a good, blessed and meaningful Ramadhan! will write soon….

With loads of love, with all my heart!