As i sat down with mum and her close friend after lunch, while doing some flowers for our beautiful friend’s engagement next month, we started talking about love and marriage. Both mum and her friend was sharing both their experiences with me. As we got deeper and deeper into the conversation, mum’s friend started to pour her heart out, letting go her steam, opening up more and more to us.. we had our listening ears on and listened every word she was saying. Slowly she voiced her dissatisfaction with her daughter, then her husband. After an hour, she broke down, she really broke down to tears. I felt helpless. The things that she has gone through.. my heart really goes out to her. She has gone through a lot! Trust me, a lot! But still a perfect mum and a perfect wife in our eyes. I admire her willpower, her determination, her understanding, her sincerity, her good intentions, and above all her patience. Hurt. She was so badly hurt by her daughter’s remarks and actually thought of the unthinkable. I held her hands and told her that there will be a reward instore for her, she just doesnt know it yet. God probably wants to see how we can actually handle all the hurdles before we can actually dance. And when the time comes for us to finally dance, believe me, we will dance InsyaAllah. She is, a role model mum (besides my amazingly wonderful, loving, understanding, greatest mum). Never ever make your mum cry. Ever. Circumstances pushed her to say things which she didnt mean to say, i know. I’m sure she didnt mean it. She told us she felt good after sharing it with us. And i thank God she shared her experiences with us. Both mothers infront of me have so much love in them, you can actually feel it!! I was so proud to be in the same room with them, let alone to have them in my life.
Being a wife, wow! Is really a dugaan for some, i’m sure (if not all!) There will be dugaan definitely! Challenges, obstacles of course! Its how you handle them that differenciates you from the rest. I have the outmost respect to these two women whom i love so very much. They’ve touched me in so many ways. (I’m not sure if i’ll be a ’supermodel, a trophy, a dancer or a singer’. hmmmm… i’ll just be me)
We all have had our good times, when times are good, everyone remembered us, loved us, helped us, looked at us, but when times are bad, no one hardly ever remember us. I agree. And sometimes, friends are much more important than family. All we ask for is just some respect, love and support during this period of time, nothing more. The rest, after our effort, we can only ask from Him. There are other people who suffer even more, all we have to do is never stop asking from Him and have every faith in Him.
After all that, before she left us for home, she said something to my ears. I was so overwhemlingly touched. I huged her tight, kissed and thanked her, and i dont think i can ever stop thanking her. It was really an honour, i felt touched. I will always be her daughter, the happiest one in the world to be loved by mak and her and will love her back with all my heart. It was definitely a female bonding day for us!
I first started writing my so called ‘headlines’ in December 2003. Just a line or two summing up my day. It got longer and longer and i had to delete them as they only allowed certain amount of characters in them. And now, there’s blogs! Why didnt they come up with this blog thinggy earlier! Some blogs are educational, some mere thoughts, some crappish (i’ve come across some, no point including the link :P) Mine, i’d like to think its gonna be somewhere in between those three! 